Thankful... oh so thankful...

With it being November, I started posting once a day on Facebook the things I'm grateful/thankful for... it's kinda nice to remember things that are positive in my life rather than negative since so many things have been on the downhill slide in the last year or so what with deaths in the family, J's investigation (and promotion loss), all the problems with the house, Mimic getting bit by a snake, my miscarriage...

However, Oct seemed to really be a turning month in some respects because J came to me wanting to try to get preg finally - he determined that he would no longer let the military guide how he would lead his personal life!! I loved hearing that... 

Then this month after he's finally decided not to let the military rule his personal life, the military finally has finally released him from this investigation. Not that we've received the paperwork that declares this, it's just word of mouth currently but word of mouth is a step forward!! J's commander called Friday and said that the investigation came back Substantiated-Non Recruiter Error. Meaning that yes someone got in the Army that wasn't qualified to join, but no it was not his fault. This is such a relief for him and me too honestly.. however, my first reaction to it was what is this going to do to his wanting to try for a child?? I shouldn't have doubted him... I know that usually once he's made his mind up about something that it's rare for him to change it back and he didn't about trying either... he's currently content to let me decide if trying and possibly moving by myself is going to be too much...

I don't say it enough how thankful I am that I am married to him and have been able to make our marriage work... I know he's a pain in my ass, I know that I hate a lot of his bad habits and how he reacts to things, but I also know that he generally doesn't want me unhappy... he might not know how to make me happy all of the time, but he does try... I should remember and be thankful for that more often!!

Needless to say, we'll continue trying for a baby - I am not sure yet if I want to push things to the next level of active trying if we aren't preg before he leaves, or if I'll just wait till we are settled at our next duty station. I'm really hoping everything goes smoothly... I hope that all the paperwork comes back quickly, that his promotion status gets reinstated without an issue, that his re-enlistment allows a choice of somewhere that we both would be happy going to (if not then maybe a bonus?), I hope that the house sells quickly so I'm not alone here for long, and that wherever we end up next we continue to be happy with our relationship...