Discovery

So, I have made a little discovery... I'm obsessed with my anger and hurt!! I'm obsessed to the point where I will meditate on it and find things to pick apart so I'm caused more pain... I don't know if that's exactly true but that's what it feels like I'm doing... I find websites where the sole focus is infertility and multiple miscarriages, I obsess over reading them over and over... I hunt for new reasons why I haven't been able to carry to term... I allow myself to be in this funk that just won't shake!! Oh and I am beginning to feel like there is something hormonally wrong with me... I'm scared, sad, tired as hell, frustrated over little things... I don't know why??? And I don't know if I want to find out yet if I'm possibly... yeah, not going to even say it!!!

I'll give it a few months and see where I am then... until then, I'll probably keep obsessing!