... and I don't know how to unburden these feelings??
My husband found out today that his promotion status was removed, in other words part of his career in the military just had a huge stumbling block... Why? Because he was acting station commander when an investigation was initiated on another recruiter!! Why does this upset me so much?? Because it means that I've just got shoved backward in my progress toward motherhood... oh and of course I'm upset cause my husband is upset about his losing his promotion status, can't forget that is the most important part of why I need to be upset!! Whatever...
Then lets see.. my husband's family is nothing but drama this week...
- His little sister is just about the most annoying spoiled brat ever!! Seriously my blood pressure is through the roof just listening to this shit!! This child has been a thorn in my ass since I met her and only gotten worse throughout the years - anything from stealing, running away, assault on a police officer, sleeping around at 13 (and trying to get preg) to pitting me and DH against each other cause I actually told her "no" occasionally when she was at our house, of course her mommy was there too and I had no right to tell her what she could or couldn't do... WHATEVER - if someone had disciplined that brat when she was little she probably wouldn't be nearly as... be nice Stephenie!! Anyways, latest thing is that she quit her job and went to Hawaii to hook up with a married military guy... Really?? REALLY?? Cause her current loser of a boyfriend went back to jail maybe...?? She also wants DH to pull his "magic" strings and get her into the military... she does the cutesy thing and bats her eyelashes while pouting and just expects everyone to do whatever she wants them too!! She has serious issues!!!!
- The oldest brother (DH is the oldest period out of 4 on his mom's side, at least 2 other siblings on daddy dearest) is having baby number 2... I keep telling myself that I'm not upset by this, but I am - deeply, deeply upset... They've been married/together for all of 2 seconds or at least it seems that way, officially I think they've been married 3 years and were dating maybe a year before that?? I shouldn't be upset, I should be happy for them... I just feel that they've stolen my thunder really... I'm still childless after 9 years of marriage and 2 years on/off dating, 3 clinical miscarriages... MIL is so excited and always wanting to talk about "peanut", the 2 yr old little girl, and now they are at the hospital about to welcome the new little boy!! DH is excited acting kinda about his new nephew, was really excited by his niece... me, I just wanna hide somewhere!! Actually, I think I'll do just that before I start crying and have to explain my "jealousy"... Night Bloggerville!
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