Went to see "The Vow" last night with a friend and her daughter- it was a very good movie, very touching... really made you want to examine your own relationship to see if you stack up against theirs in a way. Do you think that your relationship could withstand that type of situation?? To go through months of the unknown?? To end the relationship even though you want to fight for it just because it might be the best thing at the time?? To love someone still, even though you don't know if they'll ever remember you or your relationship?? It really puts things in perspective...
I have offered my own husband a free pass once because I thought it might eventually save our relationship from ruin, and for a time it did seem to help, however ultimately I think it made things worse because then it was something that he could bring back up as a form of evidence that I didn't love him the way he thought you should love your spouse. Problem with his logic is that I honestly believe I love him more than he loves me.. I only offered that as a way to make him happy!? It took almost 3 years for him to understand the offer for what it was.. 3 years and several counseling sessions.. and I still wonder if he understands what it is to love someone so much that you'd be willing to break your own heart, to crush your own dreams, to pretend to be ok with a decision that you know will make them happy.. I pray to never find out that I'm right, that I do love him more than he loves me, I hope I'm wrong.. I pray that the trials we've already been burdened with have made us strong enough to survive anything else that could come our way..
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