This week is already crap

Okay. . recap. .

Last week I had the clinic calling me with urgent messages saying I needed to come back in and talk to them. . okay so I do and I get told that not all the results were correct and that I now have something that is treatable but where did I get it. . "... it could have been in your system for a set amount of time but highly unlikely!" Okay. .what in the hell does that mean? It means I have a STD that I don't know anything about and it isn't life threatening and is treatable but because my Husband doesn't believe that I haven't cheated on him he thinks now more than ever that he finally has proof. . where is this going to end up I don't even wanna know. All I do know is that I haven't cheated on my husband a day in my life and won't ever!! Grrr. .
Then it snowed all weekend long and J was sick so that meant I had to go out and do something to keep from going insane. . What I ended up doing was shoveling the driveway for us and my neighbor. . First time for everything I guess!! But then when J did get to feeling better on Sunday I tried to force him to talk to me about this whole STD things since he was the one who showed up first with something and now I have a completely different STD than he does. . only difference is that mine is curable!! His is just an annoyance but sticks around!! Well when forcing him to talk didn't work I went shopping which seems to be the only thing I have left in my arsenal for stress release other than sex which that particular thing seems non-existant now. . and that really bothers me!!
I used to love the feel of his touch and now I almost cringe . . this so isn't happening!! And nevermind the comment of "You're Fat!!" everything he gets upset at me for something new. . or getting blamed for giving him something that I don't have!! I can't handle that kinda BS!! And you add to that the fact that he loves nothing more than to prove over and over that this marriage isn't nearly as important to him as his family or friends cause he sure loves to let them make his decisions for him!!! Everyone else dictates the pattern of our marriage but us. . how in the hell does that work??

NO Romance novel here boys and girls. .